I've Been A Fool Again! HAHAHAHHA

Seriously Dumb

Here I am feeling like shit,
And all the others loving this shit.
Here I am giving my heart,
And all the others stomping it hard.

It has happened once again,
Like a routine everyday.
It has happened once again,
Crushing my trust all away.

So you think I’m that dumb?
Oh yes I’ve always been this dumb.
So why have I always been this dumb?
Cause I’ve given my every trust without any doubt.

But what goes around comes around.
Now that I know, it’s all over.
Thanks for that pad on the back,
It was more like a stab in my back.

For how much I’ve tried to defend you,
And all I get is being a fool.
I’ve been a complete fool,
Feeling guilty for donkeys like you.

So you think I do not know,
But God knows, you know and someday I’ll know.
So you think I’m still a fool,
But God has decided that i should know.

Here I am trying to heal myself,
But there you are attempting to kill me.
Here I am in so much pain,
And there you are enjoying all gains.

Somehow God has decided to reveal you,
Somehow God has decided to savage me,
Somehow I get to know it today,
Somehow your secrets is no more in veil.

Thanks for waking me up once again,
Thanks for giving me all these pain.
Thanks for reminding me how dumb I am,
Thanks for making me a fool once again.

Think, Thought, Thinked? Thoughted?

Sometimes, Most of the time, I Believe

Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing the right thing,
Sometimes I ponder over the slightest thing.
Sometimes I try to predict what will happen,
Sometimes I can see the things that would happen.
Sometimes I go against what I’ve deduced,
Sometimes I think too much that I’m reduced.

Most of the time I know I’m not.
Most of the time I get over worried.
Most of the time I’m right.
Most of the time I wish I was wrong.
Most of the time I hope things would change.
Most of the time I can’t not think.

I’m stubborn at times cause I hope things will change.
I’m paranoid at times cause I am pessimistic.
I’m not a fortune teller, I just base on my experience.
I think of different scenarios to how others would react.
I think it’s hard for situations to go in another direction.
I think it’s tiring to keep thinking.

I believe one day things will turn out right.
I believe my worries are for a good reason.
I believe with predictions I know what to do.
I believe every decision has its choices.
I believe I can change the way things would turn out someday.
I believe better solutions can come up if I keep thinking.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone believes in me.
Sometimes I hope someone will be there for me.
Most of the time things don’t turn out the way I hope they’ll be.
Most of the time I tend to give more then I take.
I’m changing but I’m still me deep inside.
I think people change to protect themselves.
I believe someday someone will understand and appreciate me.
I believe one day someone will walk with me.

Is there someone out there?
Who is willing to hold me close?
Believe in me,
Try to understand me,
Appreciate me
And is willing to walk with me,
Down this winding road filled with villains?

I Just Wanna Hold You

All About You

It’s 4am, I’m lying on the bed and all I see is you.
It’s 4am, I’m trying to fall a sleep but instead I fell for you.
I try to clear my mind of you, but every time I try,
Your smile just appears before me.
The harder I try, the hard I can’t get my mind off you.

I’m poisoned, poisoned by you.
Your poison is flowing through me, overcoming me,
It’s insane; it seems that you have taken over me.
How I wish I can hold your hand, how I wish I could hug you.
I want to cry in your arms, I want to cry with tears of joy.

Every time I imagine holding your hand, I would fly to wonderland.
Every time I think of your smile, I’ll melt away.
Oh, how I wish I have you right beside me.
Every time I think of you, my heart aches because I know I can’t have you.
Every time we say goodbye, it seems to be the last time we can ever meet.

Every little care and concern you give, it just makes my day.
Every little care and concern you give, I’ll be contented for the day.
I wanna sing to you, I wanna sing for you.
I wanna hold you close and tell you I love you.
But you seem so far, too far for me to reach you.

I’ve chosen a route that I thought would bring me close to you.
I’ve chosen a path that I thought I can walk with you.
Oh, how wrong can I get, oh please let me be right.
But it seems like I’m at the edge of the earth.
But it seems like another step and I’ll fall and never be able to reach you.

My heart is aching, weird, but it’s aching.
My heart is crying, weird, but it’s crying.
Oh, what did I get myself into?
My heart is aching as I might lose you.
My heart is crying, crying out for you.

I can’t do anything but just wait and pray.
I can’t make any moves as it might be a wrong one.
I just hope and pray for the best, for the path that God have chosen for me.
I also hope and pray to be able to hold you close to me,
And walk down the path just for you and me.

It's dumb to be nice.....

It Doesn’t Pay To Be Nice

It doesn’t pay to be nice,
You give your heart; you give your soul,
But in return they step on your toes.
It doesn’t pay to be kind,
You give your smile; you give your love.
But in return they walk all over you.

It doesn’t pay to look out for others,
It’s better to look out for yourself
cause no one looks out for you.
It doesn’t pay to give in to others,
It’s better to take from others
cause no one appreciates you.

It doesn’t pay to be generous,
They take from you, they never stop,
They’ll swallow you.
It doesn’t pay to be gentle,
They snatch from you, they never end,
They’ll murder you.

It doesn’t pay to be nice,
It doesn’t pay to be kind,
It doesn’t pay to look out for others,
It doesn’t pay to give in to others,
It doesn’t pay to be generous,
It doesn’t pay to be gentle.

It only pays when you are the cashier.

My PMS??

Weird

I am feeling weird, weird as life.
I am feeling weird, weird as science.
My feelings are mixed with all sorts of mines.
My feelings are mixed with all sorts of spice.

I’m lost in my own world.
I’m lost in this vast world.
My mouth is chewing fries, but my stomach contains flies.
My watch watches time flies, but my heart slowly dies.

Something is missing; I don’t know what it is.
Something is missing; I wonder where it is.
There’s a hole in my heart; I can’t find it.
There’s a hole in my soul; I can’t feel it.

I’m feeling weird, as weird as it is.
I’m feeling weird, as weird as can be.
I’m searching for my piece, to find me peace.
I’m searching for that piece, to give me that peace.

I’m feeling weird, as weird as you and me.

My Cute Little Students!

Kids!

Kids are up kids are down,
Kids are all around the floor.
Kids are left kids are right,
Kids are all around the shop.

Here they are up and down,
Jumping with joy full of life!
Here they are left and right,
Running around out of sight!

Kids get happy kids get sad,
But all they ask is your pat!
Kids get bruises kids get scratch,
But all they ask is your care!

Here they are full of might,
Can’t get tired without a fight!
Here they are full of drive,
Can’t get weary till at night!

Love them here, love them there.
Love to be them when you’re vexed!

Unsure, uncertain, unknown.....

Uncertainty

I’m feeling sour, not with jealousy
but a pinch of worry.
I’m feeling sour, not with jealousy
but a pinch of uncertainty.

What was the problem?
Was it with me?
What was the problem?
Did I do something?

I’ll feel sour till it’s resolved.
I’ll have something clinging on,
Clinging on my heart till I sort things out.
Aren’t I the best? Can’t I compare to the rest?

So I’m just a substitute?
I’m not on the priority list?
Are you taking me for granted?
Who do you think I am?

I’ll not be a substitute’s substitute.
I’ll give my everything for a responsibility.
I’ve never taken you for granted.
So don place me in uncertainty, don leave me in ambiguity.

When I'm Provoked!

Anger Management!

My eyes are burning, my heart is ablaze.
Here I’m standing with my clenched fists.
At any moment the beast in me would surface.

As I stared at the atrocious face,
The beast inside started tearing out of me.
I’m ever ready to pounce; I’m prepared for a fight.

Relax, relax, don’t let a moron control your beast.
Relax, relax look at the greens, look at the blues.
Relax, relax put the beast back and pull out your kindness.

The beast can’t live without fire,
put out your fire.
The beast can’t live without darkness,
let the sun ray reach you.
The beast can’t live without tension,
open your fists.

Breathe in deeply, feel the love in the air.
Breathe in slowly, enjoy the passion of life.
Breathe in again, loosen your body.

Enjoy the others, enjoy their love.
Enjoy the environment, enjoy its nature.
Enjoy yourself, enjoy your kindness.

Out Of Place

When You’re Out Of Place

Here you are standing in a crowd,
The crowd is large, the crowd is loud,
But all you see are nothing but doubts.
They have a goal, they have an aim,
But all you have is just your name.

When they are jumping, you are falling.
When they are singing, you are sinking.
While everyone are soaked in the atmosphere,
You are drowned by it.
While everyone are enjoying each other,
You are finding some other.

They see light, You are blinded.
They found their path, you are lost.
There you are in a crowd,
There you are out of the crowd.
Here you are standing in a crowd.

Past Collection - Memories?

Baby Don’t Cry

Baby don’t cry when I cry,
cause those tears I cry are tears of joy.
Smile baby when I cry,
remember you are the one that brought me joy.
Without you by my side,
I would not have regained my sight.
Remember,
that you were the one that reached out your hand to pull me up when I was falling through an endless pit.
Thanks for returning my feelings
when no one else did.
And for picking up the pieces of my broken heart and putting them back together.
For now I can’t promise you anything,
but I can promise you my heart.
A heart that would never stop beating for you.
I don’t care how much I mean to you,
but to me you mean the world.
So, baby don’t cry when I cry,
cause they are tears of joy.

I Just Had A Dream - Today

I Had A Dream

She smiles at you,
He smiles at you,
But deep inside they laugh at you.

Money is not everything,
Without money you are nothing

She talks to you,
He talks to you.
But deep inside they mock at you.

You forgive and forget,
They forget to forgive.

She cheers for you,
He cheers for you,
But deep inside they hope you lose.

You don’t practice what your preach,
You don’t preach what you practice.

She cares for you,
He cares for you,
But deep inside they curse at you.

One for all,
No one for one

She tells the truth,
He tells the truth,
But it’s a joke if it’s the truth.

What you say,
What you do,
It wouldn’t be the same,
Inside of you.

What's Going On? - 5 years ago

Childhood

Sitting on the swing,
Swinging through the wind.
On the same old swing,
Pushing myself to swing, swing, swing.
Here I am in a daze,
Thinking through my childhood days.

All day long we come and go,
Pacing through the sand we go!
Footprints up and down the sand,
Playthings scattered over them.
How we riot through our play,
More then a dozen times a day!

As the time ticks for a break,
In a group we ask for bread.
Bread and butter would just do,
Spread with sugar welcome too!
Pacing through the kitchen floor,
Here we are to ask for more!

And when the day is at an end,
Everyone would make new friends!
Here I am swinging in the swing,
Thinking through my childhood in a wink.
Leaving the swing, walking away,
Bracing through the wind, ending the day.

What's Going On? - 5 years ago

Darkest Moment

This is the darkest moment,
I hate everyday,
No days are happy anymore.
Days that seems happy,
Are days with a fake smile.
Thought that smiles would work,
But it all goes down in a day’s work.
The days of brightness has been drowned by the darkness emerging,
The happiness I once felt had gone with the wind.
Pain has take over me,
Tears have conquered my face.
Nothing seems interesting anymore,
Happy tunes turns into moans of pain.
Sleepless nights were overcome by the tiredness of cries.
Dreams seems to change,
But they all end up the same.
Happy moments are compared with sad ones,
They are almost the same.
Though it is sunny outside,
The Sun’s ray never reach inside.
Questions are piled up with no answers to them.
Wonder what is happening to me,
Thought through the night,
But answers never came.
Couldn’t take it,
So I fell asleep.
This is the darkest moment,
I hate the days,
I hate everyday.